I should be...

Cleaning.Campbell is taking a long nap and my floors are dirty, there is dry laundry in the dryer and wet clothes in the washer, there are dirty dishes in the sink and clean dishes in the dishwasher...I really SHOULD be cleaning.  But I'm not.  I'm blogging, I'm Internet searching, I'm pinning, I'm facebooking, I'm texting friends, I'm contemplating watching the Real Housewives Orange County that is on my DVR and although I am feeling a tad guilty..I'm allowing myself to "let go" and enjoy (insert smile). 

I make a conscious choice everyday to play and do things solely with Campbell when she is awake.  Sometimes that includes walking laps around my downstairs while her cute little fingers wrap around my two hands (while my back is giving out because I have been hunched over for 30+ minutes).  Sometimes that means acting excited to play with Elmo for the 10th time that day or sit and hit the same keys on her baby Einstein piano.  Whatever activity we go to or do at home I devote my time to my child and when she sleeps I do my other job, housewife - cleaning, cooking, etc etc. 

Today I am mom and lazy.  There is always tomorrow.

Faith

I'm a Christian.

I grew up in a family that went through spurts of going to church every Sunday and then going to church on holidays (I really dislike the last part).
My dad once said to me, "God spends his whole days caring for you and watching out over you, do you not have 1 hour each Sunday to give to him?"  Sad, but true.  I want and wanted God to be apart of my life for a very long time.

Out of all times in my life, I had the most fulfilling and wonderful relationship with God when I was a freshman and sophomore in high school.  I was apart of something called Young Life, which really helped me to understand and form a relationship with God.  I was convicted and stronger than ever in my faith.  And it felt amazing!

Unfortunately, I have let that relationship come and go and not made much time or effort for it.  BK and I struggled for a lot of years on what church to settle on.  We struggled with how we want to share our faith together and now as a family.  BUT we do agree we want that faith to be shared as a family and as a couple.  We want our child and one day children to know that church is just something we do on Sundays.  No complaining, no begging not to go and sleep in instead, we just go and we do it together.  And when we leave, we talk about church and our faith, we encourage each other, we pray together...church and faith are just apart of who we are.

However, you can imagine my struggle with the above, with the fact that I am currently in a rut with my relationship with God.  Sure, I am apart of a bible study.  Yes, we attend church.  Of course, I say my prayers and give thanks or try to give thanks almost everyday, but I am struggling and I don't know why? 

I'm hopefully this will change...and even more hopeful this is a normal.

Happy 9 months

Happy 9 Months


Happy 9 months Campbell. I CANNOT believe you are 3 months away from your first birthday. Saying that brings happy tears to my eyes.

I always say this but time is flying by and everyday I wish I could freeze it.

YOU

 

1. You weigh 18.7 lbs

 

2. You are in size 4 diaper

 

3. You eat about a 6 oz. bottle every 4 hours and now eat a full breakfast, lunch and dinner. You LOVE food!! You have been eating "table" or finger food for about 2 months now.  Anything Daddy and I eat, so do you.  You get mad and upset if you don't eat exactly what we do - sassy little thing : ) 

4. You go to bed each night between around 6:30pm-7:00pm and sleep until 6:30am!

5. You now crawl like crazy, but you love to pull yourself up and pratice walking.  You constantly are "asking" (reaching out for our hands) for our fingers so you can pull yourself up and walk around the house.  Mommy's back hurts by the end of the day : )  It is so funny to see you standing in your crib now.  We recently had to lower your mattress to the 3rd level...where has the time gone?!

6. You take 2 naps a day each for about 1.5 hours!

7. You love to laugh and talk.  You talk up a storm and mostly in public.  When you do this I say you are giving "your town hall meetings" ha!  You say mama and dada. 

8. You are so smart!!  You know exactly what and who we are talking about and show us you know by looking at or picking up what we are talking about.  You also know the word, NO and give a devilish look/smile when I say it to you...sassy girl : )  You are so good though and ohh so loving

9. You are such a creature of habit and I love it!  It gives us all some structure and we all know what to expect

10. You still love your green newborn soothie paci - ha.  You have about 5 in your crib at one time 

11. You love playdates, library storytime and getting out of the house.  We are trying to use and show you the word share a lot, as this isn't one of your best qualities at the moment, ha.

12. You are now impossible to change as you just try to roll over and get away, it has only got worse since your 6 month post. 

13. You LOVE your walker.  It gives you freedom around the downstairs since you hate to crawl on the hardwood floors.  You terrorize Abby in that thing..constantly finding her hiding and pulling her fur and ears.  It is so cute, but sometimes I do have to stick up for Abby and turn you in the other direction.  You LOVE Abby!!

14. You now have 3 teeth on the bottom and 4 others coming thru - you poor baby.  I know that doesn't feel good.   

15. You LOVE books and being read to.  You laugh and smile at books like Peek-A-Moo or Hoppity Hop Bunny.  You adore Goodnight Moon and certainly tell us when you don't like a book by slamming it shut and pushing it out of the way.

16. You love to give kisses and hugs.  And Daddy and I LOOOVEEE this. 

I could write a novel about how much you mean to us and how much our love for you grows daily. We thank God everyday for the gift of you. We love you Campbell.